"Agatha was Black - Unmasking martyrdom"
Date of Completion: 10th March 2023
Media: 32 x 40 in. on canvas
Materials including but not limited to: acrylic paints, oil paints, chalk pastels, oil pastels, burnt plastic handcuffs, dried wild mushroom, glitter, dried flower essences: yellow and red rose, lily, woolly hegnettle alka lambโs ear, chinese mock orange, daffodil, yellow stonecrop, seaweed from Lime Cay in Jamaica, bourgeon villas, purple blooms, cedar leaves, mimosa tree flowers aka natural pink silk from Jamaica, metallic pen, glitter pens, Amarachiโs menstrual blood
๐๐ฒ๐๐ฐ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฝ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป ๐ผ๐ณ ๐ช๐ผ๐ฟ๐ธ: I often experience body dysmorphic states and this topic is rarely spoken about with compassion in African communities. I grieve often about the fact that African women are the only beings in living human history that have had their reproductive functions systemically enslaved - the wet nurses (then called โsucklersโ) that were forced to nurture white children while their own children were neglected. This form of psychological and reproductive torture takes lifetimes to heal. It is these taboo, post-traumatic portals that I paint with each stroke of the canvas. I confront the lived experience of Black beings raised as girls and how that socialisation still lives in our bodies, affecting our nervous systems, how we relate to our sexuality and right to choose. I have felt comfort from honouring a feminine ancestor (Agatha) who embodied a sacred โnoโ until her last breath. It is easy to feel low self esteem as a violence survivor, especially as an African femme. Painting St. Agatha has given me space to grieve the adultification of young African girls and to celebrate the supernatural resilience that disrupts every torture we face.